Code Blue

Twelve long hours
Time for leaving
To see my family
Code Blue

Walking quickly
White coat off
Yellow gown on
Heart in my throat

Chest compressions
Starting too quickly
Feeling overdosed
On adrenaline

Must slow down
Focus hard on
Staying alive
Staying alive

Arms get tired
Rotate students
Nervous hoping
Still no pulse

Chest compressions
Hyperventilating
Tingling arms
Staring at death

Wife is crying
Forty minutes
Still no pulse
It is finished

Clean up body
Remove tubing
Tears that welled
Leak out

If perceived as weak
I don't care
I am human
Tears belong

Hugs from classmates
Good team effort
Finally time
To go home

Hot, hot shower
Wash the code off
Praying hard
Trying to calm

Mind won't let me
Arms won't let me
Nerves won't let me
Shaking still

Hugs from husband
Prayers together
What would I do
Without You, God?

Tomorrow may
Be just as hard
Medicine
Is heavy

Oh sweet Jesus
Please give me strength
To face death
And live my life